Sappy

I won’t spend much time describing the drama that set these events in motion – all you need to know is that my ex moved to PA to live with his dad’s family, it was a bad scene, so he left in a hurry on Wednesday night. I was very freaked out at the possibility of having him stay with me since the last time he visited I was a mess for days. I tried to get him to stay elsewhere, but in the end he came to stay with me until he leaves for TX to go live with his mom’s family.

Since he left in a hurry, he left a bunch of stuff behind in PA. He specifically mentioned “sentimental items.” I immediately thought about the socks and hat I made for him and it got me really upset, thinking of them discarded and eventually thrown out. I had knit love into those items and wishes and hopes for a better future, comfort for when he thought of me and all of the good times we had. I eventually worked up the courage to ask him if he had managed to take them with him when he left. He did! I started bawling with relief. I felt very rejected at the end of our marriage and he had said in the past that he wasn’t using the socks or hat because they reminded him too much of what happened – I guess only knitters (and probably crafty divorced folk) can understand why this makes me feel so much better and less rejected.